what is, or was, your biggest regret in college?

without hesitation, its definitely failing one of my core modules.


yup.

its not "not getting a girlfriend". its about getting a F grade.

up till now, i find myself not really fully over it. all my life, for all my major examinations, i have never ever failed any subject. to find myself failing one during college is...... well kinda unbelievable and shocking.

i was in hong kong when i saw my results.

i didn't really sleep well, but i tried to enjoy myself there as much as possible. thank goodness for 2 of my crazy friends who tried to cheer me up (offering to pay for a prostitute for me isn't really the best solution though).


that semester, i scored very well. in fact it was the only semester that i've scored that well. and everything came crashing down with a F grade. it was a core, not an elective that i can S/U.

i had to squeeze in that module in the following year. i had to attend extra classes and face the same professors again.

i had to prepare for an extra examination paper.

the GPA took a plunge, but fortunately, thanks to my other papers, it did not take a huge fall. my hopes of securing at least a 2nd upper honours was gone. now i'm on the borderline for a 2nd lower.

oh man.


well i can sort of comfort myself by saying i attempted 7 core modules in a single semester. juggling 7 papers was no easy feat. that semester was the worst one. i lost weight before the examination period.

honestly speaking i don't even know how i failed that damn module. funny how life turns out; i scored a B- for the toughest module and i failed the midterms for that one.


the professor probably hates me. but guess what: NO ONE LIKES HIM TOO.