oh my, its august already!

and our nation just celebrated her 44th birthday! gahahaha quite lucky i'm not deployed for any national day parade duty, just on standby mode only.

anyway! september is just a month away!

why?

come 13th sept, i'll officially be a one-year solider! pfft as if i care about being a one-year soldier.

MY ORD DATE WILL BE ANOTHER YEAR NEARER. MY PINK IC WILL, IN NO TIME, BE IN MY ARMS AGAIN, AND WE'LL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER!!


yes yes i'm getting too over the top.

well so far work in camp is still the same, boring old plain shit, nothing like the kinda army life i'd imagined young as a kid, and gone through a few months back as a trainee.

when i was young, i was very fascinated by weapons, tanks and fighter jets. i thought it was always damn cool to be a soldier, you know, like creeping up on the enemy's position unknown and take him out with a silenced rifle.

btw, thats a jungle hat he's wearing. only those who deserved it, after months of tough training, were awarded it.


i'll check out weapons online and their stats, how they work, and play first-person shooters. heh thats where games like Counterstrike and Call of Duty made their way into my com.

i'll watch movies like Saving Private Ryan and Black Hawk Down and watch in awe as the soldiers work in teams/sections/group/platoons to breach enemy frontlines or perform a rescue operation.

as they rushed in under the cover of darkness, i wonder how it actually feels like wearing that uniform, with the vest bearing all your magazines, grenades, smoke grenades and whatnot, holding that silenced MP-5 submachine gun, threading slowly, with their night-vision goggles.

or waiting, waiting, waiting under the hot sun in the cover of your camouflage suit, just for that moment when your target steps out of the vehicle, and all you have to do is to pull that trigger and shoot him- from over 1km away. and if you missed that..... well... snipers don't miss their targets, do they? they're trained!

it always seemed so easy for them to run, jump around with their helmets on. they could run and run and dive for cover or crouch for a better firing position.

i always wanted to be one of them.



when i was in the army i thought to myself, GOODNESS WERE THOSE GUYS ON STEROIDS OR SOMETHING?! everything was tough man, waking up in the morning, going for the 2.4km run, running against the time in SOC. OMG SOC. that really got me thinking: THOSE GUYS ON TV CARRY PLASTIC GUNS AND GRENADES TO WAR, DON'T THEY.

my SOC wasn't good; in fact i flunk it. after running 700m down in your SBO (estimated load on body = 6-8kg? the helmet was the source of all problems; IT JUST WONT LET YOUR BRAIN THINK) the first obstacle was the low wall we had to leap and climb over. many a times when i reached it i sprinted for it and attempt to leap over it.......

... only to go *PIAK* straight into the wall.

i'm pretty sure i wasn't the only one! HAHA. btw the wall is about 1.8m? Yao Ming could easily climb over it man!

and in the movies you see those Special Forces, those Marines, those super-duper secretive special tactics forces they leap and jump around and sprint like nobody business.

their training must be damn good. err i mean acting. plus fake props. GAHAHAHA.


well but i can honestly say i enjoyed most of my training. though i was slow in learning fieldcraft (my sergeant in BSLC was an asshole though) even in Charlie ASLC i enjoyed the GPMG firing. although after that i caught a high fever -_-

i'm pretty thankful for the fact that i'm trained in most weapons an infantry soldier should know and operate. from the small arms (SAR 21) to the crazy-ass huge one (MATADOR- go google it up), i've tried it all.

the only thing i've kinda regret is not being able to be in an active infantry unit. well honestly speaking when i was in Charlie ASLC i was so sooo demoralised that i just wanna be posted somewhere non-combatant. but then now i look back and i thought, its just 14weeks of training in ASLC. just 14 weeks of hell and after that you'll be free.

sadly the ankle problem in BSLC re-surfaced in ASLC and i took the chance to get a long excuse and as a result i'm Out of Course in ASLC.

oh well you can't have the best of both worlds. i've got partially my freedom and the ultimate "slack and stay-out" vocation BUT i didn't get to realise my dream when i was a kid- to be a full-fledged soldier (no matter infantry, armour, artillery or other vocations).

yes i'm still combatant fit, i'm still liable for NS service but my current vocation doesn't involve any of the usual things you'll associate with a soldier: weapons, fieldcraft, heavy fullpack loads, camouflage cream.

basically i'm getting paid to go to the office and...... do my work.

of course i've tried to keng before in ASLC. hahahahaaha isn't every NSF supposed to do that?!

but as time goes by i realised my passion was IN the field. i'll find myself watching people march pass in their SBO/FBO and memories of my training periods will drift through my mind... how i envy them.

i'm a very very weird person right. HAHA. got such a good vocation yet "YOU SIAO AH! WANT GO OUTFIELD?! YOU 8-5 VOCATION SOMEMORE NO OUTFIELD YOU STILL COMPLAIN."

lol. i'm special. ^^