hello everyone. how have you guys been?
been listening to this song for sometime now. its really good. meaningful too.
life has been pretty boring so far. other than school work, i have CCA tchoukball trainings, gym, FYP to do.. oh yeah a few days back i finally got to play soccer again! like, after 4-5 months.
Frankly speaking, I've never been a huge fan or really really like Tchoukball, but i guess its okay to try out something new. Football has always been my love and passion. Funny though, I don't bother keeping track of football news and stuffs. Whenever friends start to talk about the latest news or whatever bullshit I'll just space out.....
don't give a fuck anyways.. haha
Sorry people. No interesting stories, no pathetic encounters to share with you guys today.
my life is just stagnant now.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
what is, or was, your biggest regret in college?
without hesitation, its definitely failing one of my core modules.
yup.
its not "not getting a girlfriend". its about getting a F grade.
up till now, i find myself not really fully over it. all my life, for all my major examinations, i have never ever failed any subject. to find myself failing one during college is...... well kinda unbelievable and shocking.
i was in hong kong when i saw my results.
i didn't really sleep well, but i tried to enjoy myself there as much as possible. thank goodness for 2 of my crazy friends who tried to cheer me up (offering to pay for a prostitute for me isn't really the best solution though).
that semester, i scored very well. in fact it was the only semester that i've scored that well. and everything came crashing down with a F grade. it was a core, not an elective that i can S/U.
i had to squeeze in that module in the following year. i had to attend extra classes and face the same professors again.
i had to prepare for an extra examination paper.
the GPA took a plunge, but fortunately, thanks to my other papers, it did not take a huge fall. my hopes of securing at least a 2nd upper honours was gone. now i'm on the borderline for a 2nd lower.
oh man.
well i can sort of comfort myself by saying i attempted 7 core modules in a single semester. juggling 7 papers was no easy feat. that semester was the worst one. i lost weight before the examination period.
honestly speaking i don't even know how i failed that damn module. funny how life turns out; i scored a B- for the toughest module and i failed the midterms for that one.
the professor probably hates me. but guess what: NO ONE LIKES HIM TOO.
without hesitation, its definitely failing one of my core modules.
yup.
its not "not getting a girlfriend". its about getting a F grade.
up till now, i find myself not really fully over it. all my life, for all my major examinations, i have never ever failed any subject. to find myself failing one during college is...... well kinda unbelievable and shocking.
i was in hong kong when i saw my results.
i didn't really sleep well, but i tried to enjoy myself there as much as possible. thank goodness for 2 of my crazy friends who tried to cheer me up (offering to pay for a prostitute for me isn't really the best solution though).
that semester, i scored very well. in fact it was the only semester that i've scored that well. and everything came crashing down with a F grade. it was a core, not an elective that i can S/U.
i had to squeeze in that module in the following year. i had to attend extra classes and face the same professors again.
i had to prepare for an extra examination paper.
the GPA took a plunge, but fortunately, thanks to my other papers, it did not take a huge fall. my hopes of securing at least a 2nd upper honours was gone. now i'm on the borderline for a 2nd lower.
oh man.
well i can sort of comfort myself by saying i attempted 7 core modules in a single semester. juggling 7 papers was no easy feat. that semester was the worst one. i lost weight before the examination period.
honestly speaking i don't even know how i failed that damn module. funny how life turns out; i scored a B- for the toughest module and i failed the midterms for that one.
the professor probably hates me. but guess what: NO ONE LIKES HIM TOO.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
:(
when will you ever learn.
its kinda funny sometimes, when you think you are quite old enough to understand certain things, or make certain decisions. then you get it right back in your face. tables are turned against you.
you get ridiculed.
not only misunderstood, but ridiculed.
no, don't shake your head and let it go with a smile, thinking, "Oh it happens.. shit happens. I'll just get over it. Gahh...."
no.
you need to learn. its not a shameful thing or embarrassing thing to learn from such situations.
its only through learning that you don't make the same mistake again.
ridiculed. again.
goodness.
makes me feel like such a huge loser.
and i tell myself, this shall not happen again. never.
when will you ever learn.
its kinda funny sometimes, when you think you are quite old enough to understand certain things, or make certain decisions. then you get it right back in your face. tables are turned against you.
you get ridiculed.
not only misunderstood, but ridiculed.
no, don't shake your head and let it go with a smile, thinking, "Oh it happens.. shit happens. I'll just get over it. Gahh...."
no.
you need to learn. its not a shameful thing or embarrassing thing to learn from such situations.
its only through learning that you don't make the same mistake again.
ridiculed. again.
goodness.
makes me feel like such a huge loser.
and i tell myself, this shall not happen again. never.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Sunday, August 26, 2012
looks like I haven't been blogging in an extremely long time.
well. its the final year now. after 6 years of primary school education, 4 years of secondary school, 3 years old technical education at the polytechnic, 2 years of sweat during national service, and now, 3rd and final year in college.
wow.
its no secret; i'm 24 this year and its considered an "adult" age. guys my age are getting married in most parts of the world, without conscription no doubt.
its impossible for me to bask and hope for puppy love again where there's only movies, dinner and what to do for the next date to care about.
i've missed my chance.
deep down inside i feel some sort of regrets, sadness that its such a shame, what a waste, i did not have this experience that so many youngsters have. the innocence and the sheer joys of having a "girlfriend". in my time it meant that you have someone to hang out with after school and enjoy some mos burger at the heartland malls. (nowadays it just means that once her parents aren't home, you get to bang the hell outta her)
someone to text, yes, SMS, mushy lame love messages to. complete with all those crappy goodnight messages, with funny symbols representing bears, stars... yes those were my time. you get to hold hands and walk along the heartland malls. maybe weekends you'll venture into Bugis Junction?
while playing soccer in school she'll either be watching you at the sidelines or having her CCA, and you'll meet her in a sweaty state, she'll be so turned off but she still smiles. and you will, of course, choose to walk her home, probably taking a longer way.
oh well.
goodnights.
ps. those were what i observed from my friends while we were in secondary school. which is almost 8-10 years back. :) note OBSERVED FROM MY FRIENDS
:(
well. its the final year now. after 6 years of primary school education, 4 years of secondary school, 3 years old technical education at the polytechnic, 2 years of sweat during national service, and now, 3rd and final year in college.
wow.
its no secret; i'm 24 this year and its considered an "adult" age. guys my age are getting married in most parts of the world, without conscription no doubt.
its impossible for me to bask and hope for puppy love again where there's only movies, dinner and what to do for the next date to care about.
i've missed my chance.
deep down inside i feel some sort of regrets, sadness that its such a shame, what a waste, i did not have this experience that so many youngsters have. the innocence and the sheer joys of having a "girlfriend". in my time it meant that you have someone to hang out with after school and enjoy some mos burger at the heartland malls. (nowadays it just means that once her parents aren't home, you get to bang the hell outta her)
someone to text, yes, SMS, mushy lame love messages to. complete with all those crappy goodnight messages, with funny symbols representing bears, stars... yes those were my time. you get to hold hands and walk along the heartland malls. maybe weekends you'll venture into Bugis Junction?
while playing soccer in school she'll either be watching you at the sidelines or having her CCA, and you'll meet her in a sweaty state, she'll be so turned off but she still smiles. and you will, of course, choose to walk her home, probably taking a longer way.
oh well.
goodnights.
ps. those were what i observed from my friends while we were in secondary school. which is almost 8-10 years back. :) note OBSERVED FROM MY FRIENDS
:(
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